Ugh, I just got out of my microbiology practical exam and it was rough. I knew I wasn't going to do well, so it's not like it was a surprise or anything. I'm still on track with my diet. I think my body is in shock and stopped losing weight because I wasn't eating enough. That tends to happen and they say that all the time on the Biggest Loser if someone stops losing. I'm not going wild or anything, but just adding a few hundred calories more a day. Usually one more snack or something.
It was my and Daniel's anniversary on Wednesday and we went out for dinner to this amazing Indian restaurant. I've never had Indian food before and never tried curry, so I was a little worried I would hate it but I LOVED it!!! It was so good, I'm going to have to go there again for sure. Daniel even liked it, well, he liked what he got, he found out he hates curry. He said he, "Hates anything that has warm yogurt in it." Ok, whatever, more for me :) We don't really do presents, but Daniel got me a champagne glass set and a huge bottle of champagne for us to share. We killed the whole bottle... I love champagne :)
Yesterday I was supposed to go to work from 10-5, but I called off. They tried to get me to call someone to replace my shift, but then they saw anyone who was able to replace my shift was already working, so they just moaned and groaned and I put on my best fake sick voice. It was easy since I was still lying in bed half asleep. I had to study! I did study for this stupid exam, and I'll be happy if I can break 70% on it! Blah! I have an exam in the lecture class Wednesday and a Paper due Friday, which I haven't even started on. I think I'll be OK for it now though, studying for the lab practical made me understand more about what I have to write. I have to sit through lecture now and pretend to listen. I have my computer, so I'll probably just study for the exam. I have to work today 3-9, but I'm on the makeup side, so that should make it go faster. When I'm working skincare it goes so slowww... Then I'm off this weekend! I have a wedding to go to tomorrow. You know you're starting to get old when you are going to a wedding as a friend of the brides MOM! Hahahaha... it's a former co-worker from Dillard's. It should be fun, and fancy, I'm excited. I don't really have anything good to wear though. It's supposed to be really nice, 63 and mostly sunny. I'll probably dig out my old go to wedding dress that I wore to 2 weddings 3 years ago. I got my period this morning, so that sucks... I hope I don't have cramps tomorrow. They're so much better now because I'm back on the pill though.
I better get off to class.
Friday, October 14, 2011
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
Slacker
Ugh, I just can't get in the mood to do any school work. I have lots of things due or exams to study for, but I just don't want to do it, and I'm not normally like this. It's probably because 2/3 of my classes don't interest me and the other class is all online, so it makes slacking off easy. I have an exam tomorrow, it's online and I can use any information I want, but I've only looked at 1/7 chapters :P I have 3 hours to look at them tomorrow, then I go to work, then I'm going to come home and take the exam. I have about 2.5 hours between my AM class and when I have to leave for work, but I don't want to rush through it. It'll be less stressful if I can take my time at night with it.
Work was good tonight. It was slow, so I didn't have to stay for my on call. I ate my dinner there, a healthy choice frozen meal and a banana with a bottle of water. I'm so used to eating a meal at work and then eating another dinner when I get home that it feels odd not to eat when I get home. I told myself that I wouldn't eat anything after dinner anymore, and I've been able to do that for the last week. I'll usually have some tea or lots of water, but that's it. It's almost easier not to eat than to eat something... I feel like if I eat something it's really not going to last me very long and I'll be hungry in an hour anyway, so why take in the calories. I'll feel bad about it anyway and night time is when I usually go crazy. I'll sit down with a sleeve of saltine crackers and vow to only eat a few. I'll look down 10 minutes later and only have 5 damn crackers left, so I finish off the sleeve. One of those sleeves of crackers is around 450 calories! That's more than I eat in a meal now! So if night time is when I screw up my day, I just won't eat then :)
I am going to a wedding on Saturday. I chose chicken for my meal, so hopefully it's not drenched in white sauce or butter or something. I'll make sure to eat all my meat, only half of my starch and all of my veggies... and only one glass of wine (even though they are having a wine tasting bar and 4 different types of champagne... *drool*). It's going to be really fancy! Plus I get to see a few of the people I used to work with, and that's always fun. Poor Daniel, at least I have a friend who is bringing her boyfriend, so he'll have some male company.
Speaking of Daniel, ugh... what an ass. I was laying on the couch on my stomach playing on my phone and one of my cats jumped up and layed down on my back, and I was like, "awwww, is there a kitty on my back?" And Daniel says, "Well yeah, they so like to sleep on soft things." >:S I almost killed him. Oh well, it only makes me want to look better than him that much more.
I'm freaking out right now because something in the office smells like burning plastic. We have a zillion computers in here, so it's probably just them, but it freaks me out! Last time I smelled something like that a lid from my plastic ziplock container had fallen down in the dishwasher and was melting to the heat source. Smoke was pouring out of the thing. I don't see any smoke and the cats are acting normal, so it's probably nothing, but now I have to go to bed worried I'll be woken up by the damn smoke alarm... ugh. I have class in the morning too, anatomy lab with my horrible lab partners. This is the last time in a month I actually have to work with them though. Next Tues is fall break so no class, the next week is a review week, so they won't show up and the week after that is an exam, so it'll be a while, woo hoo!
Work was good tonight. It was slow, so I didn't have to stay for my on call. I ate my dinner there, a healthy choice frozen meal and a banana with a bottle of water. I'm so used to eating a meal at work and then eating another dinner when I get home that it feels odd not to eat when I get home. I told myself that I wouldn't eat anything after dinner anymore, and I've been able to do that for the last week. I'll usually have some tea or lots of water, but that's it. It's almost easier not to eat than to eat something... I feel like if I eat something it's really not going to last me very long and I'll be hungry in an hour anyway, so why take in the calories. I'll feel bad about it anyway and night time is when I usually go crazy. I'll sit down with a sleeve of saltine crackers and vow to only eat a few. I'll look down 10 minutes later and only have 5 damn crackers left, so I finish off the sleeve. One of those sleeves of crackers is around 450 calories! That's more than I eat in a meal now! So if night time is when I screw up my day, I just won't eat then :)
I am going to a wedding on Saturday. I chose chicken for my meal, so hopefully it's not drenched in white sauce or butter or something. I'll make sure to eat all my meat, only half of my starch and all of my veggies... and only one glass of wine (even though they are having a wine tasting bar and 4 different types of champagne... *drool*). It's going to be really fancy! Plus I get to see a few of the people I used to work with, and that's always fun. Poor Daniel, at least I have a friend who is bringing her boyfriend, so he'll have some male company.
Speaking of Daniel, ugh... what an ass. I was laying on the couch on my stomach playing on my phone and one of my cats jumped up and layed down on my back, and I was like, "awwww, is there a kitty on my back?" And Daniel says, "Well yeah, they so like to sleep on soft things." >:S I almost killed him. Oh well, it only makes me want to look better than him that much more.
I'm freaking out right now because something in the office smells like burning plastic. We have a zillion computers in here, so it's probably just them, but it freaks me out! Last time I smelled something like that a lid from my plastic ziplock container had fallen down in the dishwasher and was melting to the heat source. Smoke was pouring out of the thing. I don't see any smoke and the cats are acting normal, so it's probably nothing, but now I have to go to bed worried I'll be woken up by the damn smoke alarm... ugh. I have class in the morning too, anatomy lab with my horrible lab partners. This is the last time in a month I actually have to work with them though. Next Tues is fall break so no class, the next week is a review week, so they won't show up and the week after that is an exam, so it'll be a while, woo hoo!
Sunday, October 9, 2011
Thanksgiving #1
Happy Thanksgiving!!! I know I live in the US now, but who doesn't love an excuse to eat another turkey dinner, haha. Well, we didn't do the whole thing, just a baked turkey loin. OMG, I made the best sweet potatoes EVER! I baked one for about 2 hours, took the skin off and mushed it in a bowl with about a tablespoon of honey, a tablespoon of vanilla extract, a few tablespoons of Splenda brown sugar and a handful of walnuts... mmm... so tasty! So I had that and a serving of turkey. We were going to have corn, but we forgot to buy it at the store. We went out for breakfast like we tend to do on Sundays, I wanted to make sure it was somewhere that had healthy stuff, but Daniel wanted to go to the new Big Boy that opened by school (NKU). They have a breakfast bar, and a salad/soup bar so I said sure. There had to be something healthy there. It was packed of course because we were there at noon, on a Sunday, at a new restaurant, in Kentucky... so of course it was packed. The wait was quick though. We got sat and pretty much were forgotten about, haha. I guess they are still trying to work out the kinks in the place. The breakfast bar didn't have the lunch stuff out, so no soup/salad, just breakfast stuff. I saw it had fruit and scrambled eggs, but it was $7.90. I was only going to eat one plate, so I didn't think it was worth it. I ordered oatmeal and an English muffin with jam, no butter. Daniel's food came out a bit later, delivered by someone who didn't take our order. He had gone through a whole biscuit and gravy and half his hashbrowns before my oatmeal showed up, without an English muffin. I flagged down our original server and said I was missing it, and she brought it to me. It was DRENCHED in butter!!! I think they had taken a whole ice scoop full of butter and thrown it in between the two pieces. I had checked before she left and said it was supposed to be dry, so she took it back and got me another one, slightly less toasted, but better. They had sugar free strawberry jam, woo hoo, so I had that. The oatmeal was horrible, I only at about half of it. I think it took so long because no one goes to Big Boy for oatmeal! They are the home of the Big Boy burger with tartar sauce. There was seriously nothing healthy on the menu. I almost ordered an omlette, but then thought that it might be poached in butter. Diners like to do that, throw a ladle of butter into the pan before cooking eggs.
We went grocery shopping after. I used to hate going on Sundays because it's so busy, but I think the new grocery store we go to isn't as bad as it was when it first opened... that or my anxiety medicine is working better for me and the crowds don't bother me like they used to, haha! We are spending a lot less at the grocery store now that we aren't buying the snacks and junk we used to! A week's worth of food used to cost between $140 and $180, now we only go a little over $100! We bough electronic Monopoly while we were there today because I wanted that game the other day and was shocked to see we didn't have it. The electronic banking is so nice!
I meant to do a bunch of studying this weekend, but oops, didn't do it. I'm a person who can't study over a long period of time, I usually wait until closer to the due date or test so it's fresh in my mind. I'm still waiting to hear from NKU about the nursing program. If I spent all this time on pre-req classes and don't get into that damn program I'm going to flip out. I'm so scared I won't get in. I should know by next week, and trust me, when I find out, everyone will know!
So I'm doing really well on the diet. It's been a week now and I don't see an end in sight. I'm not craving anything really, I just get really hungry at night. That's when I drink a lot of water or tea or something. I haven't been buying pop at the grocery store. I'm trying to stick to just water. I had a diet coke the other day and it tasted so sweet! The one think I haven't done yet is exercise. Ugh, I hate it. I think my former trainer and my gym made me hate going. I was pretty much suckered in to buying a trainer and signing a contract, and regretted it the moment I did it. Way too expensive and it didn't work. My trainer was great, but he pushed me waaaaay too hard. So now I don't even want to go. I'm hoping that just by cutting back my calories and eating better food I'll be able to lose some weight and when I get down maybe 20 or so pounds it'll be easier for me to go exercise. My gym is nice, it has a women's only area which I love to use and TV's on every piece of equipment. There's also a movie room with a huge screen in a dark room that plays new to DVD movies. I don't know why I don't go, it's not like it's even far away!
I guess I should stop here. There are always things that happen to me and I think, Oh, I need to remember to mention this in the blog, but I always forget by the time I get here. Off to make some tea :)
We went grocery shopping after. I used to hate going on Sundays because it's so busy, but I think the new grocery store we go to isn't as bad as it was when it first opened... that or my anxiety medicine is working better for me and the crowds don't bother me like they used to, haha! We are spending a lot less at the grocery store now that we aren't buying the snacks and junk we used to! A week's worth of food used to cost between $140 and $180, now we only go a little over $100! We bough electronic Monopoly while we were there today because I wanted that game the other day and was shocked to see we didn't have it. The electronic banking is so nice!
I meant to do a bunch of studying this weekend, but oops, didn't do it. I'm a person who can't study over a long period of time, I usually wait until closer to the due date or test so it's fresh in my mind. I'm still waiting to hear from NKU about the nursing program. If I spent all this time on pre-req classes and don't get into that damn program I'm going to flip out. I'm so scared I won't get in. I should know by next week, and trust me, when I find out, everyone will know!
So I'm doing really well on the diet. It's been a week now and I don't see an end in sight. I'm not craving anything really, I just get really hungry at night. That's when I drink a lot of water or tea or something. I haven't been buying pop at the grocery store. I'm trying to stick to just water. I had a diet coke the other day and it tasted so sweet! The one think I haven't done yet is exercise. Ugh, I hate it. I think my former trainer and my gym made me hate going. I was pretty much suckered in to buying a trainer and signing a contract, and regretted it the moment I did it. Way too expensive and it didn't work. My trainer was great, but he pushed me waaaaay too hard. So now I don't even want to go. I'm hoping that just by cutting back my calories and eating better food I'll be able to lose some weight and when I get down maybe 20 or so pounds it'll be easier for me to go exercise. My gym is nice, it has a women's only area which I love to use and TV's on every piece of equipment. There's also a movie room with a huge screen in a dark room that plays new to DVD movies. I don't know why I don't go, it's not like it's even far away!
I guess I should stop here. There are always things that happen to me and I think, Oh, I need to remember to mention this in the blog, but I always forget by the time I get here. Off to make some tea :)
Thursday, October 6, 2011
Day off (work and school)
I was off all day today, I love days like those. I slept in... I woke up at 10:30am, fall back to sleep until 11:30 and then dozed off and on until 12:30, haha. I did some homework, caught up on some shows, ate leftover tortilla soup (yum), and then started on dinner. I made pork chops with brown rice and green beans. I attempted a gravy made with olive oil instead of butter and 1% milk, I liked it, but Daniel didn't. He was in a bad mood anyway. I don't even bother asking what's wrong any more because he will just go off on this rant about something for an hour and make himself even more mad. I just went in the office when dinner was over and started working on school stuff so he could watch his shows about trucks and engines. I bet he'll go to bed soon... he usually heads in at around 8:30pm to listen to podcasts and play on his phone until he gets tired. That's usually because I hog the TV and force him to watch shows he doesn't like :P I'm bummed! The one new show I got him to watch with me and he actually liked just got cancelled... The Playboy Club :( It was the worst time to end that damn show too, because the main character just got into a car with a mob guy. I guess we'll never know what happened to Maureen.
I have to do a presentation for my online class on a paper I am writing about Medicaid and I've decided to do a skit with my cats. I have a Mac computer (RIP Steve Jobs), and it has a program I haven't used before called iMovie that seems pretty easy to use. I'm going to have a cat fight another cat and one gets "hurt" so it goes to a friend for help because he doesn't have medical insurance so the other cat tells him/her all about the Medicaid program. It should be interesting. I have 2 months to get enough funny footage to make a skit. I think it'll be funny... but I am a crazy cat lady! LOL! I was just working on the paper actually and got side tracked. I think I'll go make some chi tea and get back to it. I work on it a little bit at a time and it's going well so far. I just hope that my instructor likes it. It's not really about informatics, but it is about the medical field. Hmm... we'll see!
I have to do a presentation for my online class on a paper I am writing about Medicaid and I've decided to do a skit with my cats. I have a Mac computer (RIP Steve Jobs), and it has a program I haven't used before called iMovie that seems pretty easy to use. I'm going to have a cat fight another cat and one gets "hurt" so it goes to a friend for help because he doesn't have medical insurance so the other cat tells him/her all about the Medicaid program. It should be interesting. I have 2 months to get enough funny footage to make a skit. I think it'll be funny... but I am a crazy cat lady! LOL! I was just working on the paper actually and got side tracked. I think I'll go make some chi tea and get back to it. I work on it a little bit at a time and it's going well so far. I just hope that my instructor likes it. It's not really about informatics, but it is about the medical field. Hmm... we'll see!
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
Getting Over The Hump
I'm sitting here, drinking my chi tea, catching up on Revenge (my sister forced me to start watching it), and I'm not hungry for a change. It's probably because I made a very yummy, and healthy, chicken tortilla soup for dinner and had 2 huge bowls! I calculated that each bowl was only slightly over 200 calories each, and since I'd only eaten about 600 calories that day, I could have two and skip the midnight hunger pains. Tea with Splenda helps too. My sister Brooke came over for dinner and after was rummaging through our pantry and freezing asking if we had any ice cream or chocolate... nope. Well, Daniel had some cookies he packs for lunch that he gave her. Better to get them out of the house. But those aren't my weaknesses, it's carbs, fat and cheese. My favorite midnight snack is 16 saltine crackers with about a cup of melted shredded cheddar cheese on top with garlic powder, more salt and Italian spice... Mmmm... tastes like garlic bread! Here is an example of an average day of what I eat when not watching my calories: Breakfast- a bagel with butter, or 5 mini donuts with an iced coffee from Starbucks (with sugar and cream of course), lunch would probably be a box of Kraft dinner or a box of Pasta Roni and some kind of sweet, like chocolate or ice cream. Popcorn for a snack, but not the light kind, the movie theatre butter one. If no one is around, I will usually rip open the bag and lick the yummy butter off the bag (gross, right). For dinner it's usually a piece of meat, with mashed potatoes or some other starch taking up half my plate, and the vegetable is usually corn, but sometimes broccoli. For a night snack, it's usually chips, or toast and butter or my saltine concoction.
Today I did much better than that. I had 2 packs of cream of wheat for breakfast (it's my favorite thing ever!) with Splenda brown sugar. Lunch was a big salad with a whole tomato, some onion and about 1/4 cup of low fat Italian cheese blend. The dressing I sort of made up. I took 2 tbsp of Kraft's Light caesar dressing, cut it with the same amount of 1% milk, added about 1 tbsp of balsamic vinegar and shook it up in a jar... the milk makes the dressing thinner so it coats the lettuce better and the vinegar adds a little pep and sort of masks the light taste of the dressing.
I haven't decided how often I should weigh myself. Some people say not to do it every day because your weight can fluctuate by a few pounds based on your hormones and cycle and other factors. Waiting and doing it once a week sucks though! I want to see progress to keep me going... but if that progress doesn't happen fast, looking every day may cause me to slip up. Maybe twice a week?
My microbiology professor moved our exam! It was supposed to be next Wed, but because we are a chapter behind and he couldn't push it back just one class (to Friday) because we have our lab exam that day, it goes back a whole week! It's great because now instead of 3 exams next week, I only have 2 *phew*! I'm off work and school tomorrow, woo hoo! The house is clean, so I don't have to do any of that, but I have LOTS of school work to catch up on. I've been slacking and need to catch up in a major way. Well, I'm going to make another cup of tea, finish this episode of Revenge and then watch the Wed night line-up (Suburgatory, Modern Family and Happy Endings), woo hoo! Night :)
Today I did much better than that. I had 2 packs of cream of wheat for breakfast (it's my favorite thing ever!) with Splenda brown sugar. Lunch was a big salad with a whole tomato, some onion and about 1/4 cup of low fat Italian cheese blend. The dressing I sort of made up. I took 2 tbsp of Kraft's Light caesar dressing, cut it with the same amount of 1% milk, added about 1 tbsp of balsamic vinegar and shook it up in a jar... the milk makes the dressing thinner so it coats the lettuce better and the vinegar adds a little pep and sort of masks the light taste of the dressing.
I haven't decided how often I should weigh myself. Some people say not to do it every day because your weight can fluctuate by a few pounds based on your hormones and cycle and other factors. Waiting and doing it once a week sucks though! I want to see progress to keep me going... but if that progress doesn't happen fast, looking every day may cause me to slip up. Maybe twice a week?
My microbiology professor moved our exam! It was supposed to be next Wed, but because we are a chapter behind and he couldn't push it back just one class (to Friday) because we have our lab exam that day, it goes back a whole week! It's great because now instead of 3 exams next week, I only have 2 *phew*! I'm off work and school tomorrow, woo hoo! The house is clean, so I don't have to do any of that, but I have LOTS of school work to catch up on. I've been slacking and need to catch up in a major way. Well, I'm going to make another cup of tea, finish this episode of Revenge and then watch the Wed night line-up (Suburgatory, Modern Family and Happy Endings), woo hoo! Night :)
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
Day 2
You never really notice how often food comes into your life until you are trying to ignore it. It's everywhere, especially places you don't think it should be, like at work. Someone brought in donuts tonight... they were maple glaze donuts, and if that wasn't bad enough, THEY HAD BACON ON THEM! WTF... thank god for the bacon, or I would have wanted one... maple glaze is my favorite. Who thought up that brilliant idea? Hmmm, I'm going to combine flour, sugar and butter into a delicious treat, but it doesn't seem unhealthy enough, sooooo, I think I'll add some bacon. I love bacon and donuts, but not together.
I've done good today, cream of wheat for breakfast again, then tuna salad on lettuce for lunch, 2 cups of coffee with coffee mate creamer (peppermint mocha, my fav), a banana for a snack and I have some whole grain pasta and veggie soup waiting for me in the microwave right now. I'm going to have to add some saltine crackers to it, I just have to with soup. The whole can only has 180 calories though, so I can afford some crackers. People say cut white things out of your diet, but I LOVE carbs! I'll have to do that slowly or my body may freak out. I am down 2 pounds since yesterday... the first 10 are always easy, it's after that when it gets hard. Daniel said he was going to eat healthy with me, but when I got home from work 20 mins ago, I looked to see if there was dinner, and it appears as though he made a whole box of Velveeta mac and cheese and ate the whole thing, because there are no leftovers in the fridge. At least he had a salad for lunch today... but it was probably drenched in ranch dressing :P
Work was good. There was a point in my night when I was so hungry I started to feel nauseated, lol. Oops! I was scheduled 2-7pm and was on-call until 9pm, but they let me leave at 7pm because we were dead. You get scheduled a shift and maybe have an hour or two at the end of your shift that they may keep you for if the store is busy (an on-call shift). Lately they've been keeping on-call's because we have been slammed, but this week is killing us!
I had anatomy lab this morning... I have celebrities in my class! There is a GIRL who looks like sheriff Bellefleur from TrueBlood in my class, and right beside her is a girl who looks like Vienna from The Bachelor/Bachelor Pad, lol. They both look like idiots. I have microbiology lab and lecture tomorrow, and I'm off work for the next two days, yay! I should probably study something tomorrow afternoon too, or work on my paper. I'm going to eat my dinner now and watch some TV. Night :)
I've done good today, cream of wheat for breakfast again, then tuna salad on lettuce for lunch, 2 cups of coffee with coffee mate creamer (peppermint mocha, my fav), a banana for a snack and I have some whole grain pasta and veggie soup waiting for me in the microwave right now. I'm going to have to add some saltine crackers to it, I just have to with soup. The whole can only has 180 calories though, so I can afford some crackers. People say cut white things out of your diet, but I LOVE carbs! I'll have to do that slowly or my body may freak out. I am down 2 pounds since yesterday... the first 10 are always easy, it's after that when it gets hard. Daniel said he was going to eat healthy with me, but when I got home from work 20 mins ago, I looked to see if there was dinner, and it appears as though he made a whole box of Velveeta mac and cheese and ate the whole thing, because there are no leftovers in the fridge. At least he had a salad for lunch today... but it was probably drenched in ranch dressing :P
Work was good. There was a point in my night when I was so hungry I started to feel nauseated, lol. Oops! I was scheduled 2-7pm and was on-call until 9pm, but they let me leave at 7pm because we were dead. You get scheduled a shift and maybe have an hour or two at the end of your shift that they may keep you for if the store is busy (an on-call shift). Lately they've been keeping on-call's because we have been slammed, but this week is killing us!
I had anatomy lab this morning... I have celebrities in my class! There is a GIRL who looks like sheriff Bellefleur from TrueBlood in my class, and right beside her is a girl who looks like Vienna from The Bachelor/Bachelor Pad, lol. They both look like idiots. I have microbiology lab and lecture tomorrow, and I'm off work for the next two days, yay! I should probably study something tomorrow afternoon too, or work on my paper. I'm going to eat my dinner now and watch some TV. Night :)
Welcome!
Well, here I am again, starting another diet. Hopefully this one will end better though, because I'm hoping this isn't a diet, but a new way of life. Here's what's been going on. 3 years ago I got married, and instead of looking my best on my wedding day, I actually weighed the most I ever had in my entire life. I am a stress eater, a nervous eater, a happy eater, a sad eater... see a trend? I LOVE to eat! Mostly bad food, but I don't hate healthy food. I wouldn't have a hard time eating nothing but healthy foods, but I know I would just eat too much of it. Anyways, I have always been an anxious person, and finally worked up the courage to talk to a doctor about it. I was prescribed an SSRI (antidepressant) for my anxiety and Valium for situational anxiety, plus I decided that since I'm back in school and have no plans on starting a family any time soon, I should get back on the birth control pill. In the 3 months since I've started these medications, I've gained 10 pounds! Side effects of all these medications can include weight gain, but I thought, hopefully, it wouldn't happen to me. Well, it did. I am hungry ALL THE TIME... it's unreal. I would eat HUGE amounts of food and be hungry an hour later, like, actually hungry... stomach growling and everything. It's so weird. I'm debating stopping the medication because of it, but worried about my anxiety coming back strong. I've made it through today with my stomach growling and churning, but have no idea if I could take it in the long run. Here's what I ate today:
Breakfast: 2 packs of cream of wheat, 2 cups of chi tea with 1% milk and Splenda
Lunch: Tomato soup
Dinner: Chicken stirfry
Snacks: Banana, 4 pickles, Venti coffee with non-fat milk and Splenda
MY STOMACH IS GROWLING!!! Ugh, I'm so hungry. I'm 251 pounds now... blech! According to everything I've read online and BMI standards, for my height I should weight between 108 and 145 pounds... OMG!!! I have to lose over 100lbs in order to be considered a healthy weight, ugh... I can't believe I let it get that bad. 108lbs seems so tiny! I could never imagine myself that small. I don't think I was that small ever... well, maybe in middle school, hell, maybe elementary school! It just seems like an impossible goal. I remember when I was 165lbs when I met Daniel and thought I was huge, HA! I was only 20 pounds from a good weight. *sigh* Maybe I'll get there eventually. Anyway, this is my outlet, so keep reading if you're interested :)
Breakfast: 2 packs of cream of wheat, 2 cups of chi tea with 1% milk and Splenda
Lunch: Tomato soup
Dinner: Chicken stirfry
Snacks: Banana, 4 pickles, Venti coffee with non-fat milk and Splenda
MY STOMACH IS GROWLING!!! Ugh, I'm so hungry. I'm 251 pounds now... blech! According to everything I've read online and BMI standards, for my height I should weight between 108 and 145 pounds... OMG!!! I have to lose over 100lbs in order to be considered a healthy weight, ugh... I can't believe I let it get that bad. 108lbs seems so tiny! I could never imagine myself that small. I don't think I was that small ever... well, maybe in middle school, hell, maybe elementary school! It just seems like an impossible goal. I remember when I was 165lbs when I met Daniel and thought I was huge, HA! I was only 20 pounds from a good weight. *sigh* Maybe I'll get there eventually. Anyway, this is my outlet, so keep reading if you're interested :)
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